I remember being my 2nd year at uni and being shocked when I received the highest mark in the class for a short story I’d written. (You can read it here- https://flightjournal.org/2015/11/29/not-today-ruvimbo-maria-kuuzabuwe/ ) My lecturer was surprised that I was shocked and he asked me why. I didn’t know why then but if he were to ask me today I’d tell him I was surprised because I never thought of myself as a writer, I just wrote. I’d tell him I did myself a disservice by waiting for other people to believe in me. I guess what I’m trying to say is I didn’t start writing because I thought I was good at writing, I just wrote and I enjoyed writing.
I’d wanted to start a blog for years but I didn’t think my work was good enough. I didn’t think anyone would want to listen to anything I have to say, I didn’t think I had anything of value to say. I was always waiting for it be good enough. If someone knows where the “good enough” bar is please let me know because I still haven’t found it. But I eventually thought fuck it, I write primarily for myself.
As much as you want people to engage with your content be it literature, painting, photography or music etc. How others receive your work isn’t an accurate indication of your talent. It’s important to always remember why you started doing it. Not everyone will understand it and that’s okay. Don’t stop.
A Mantra for Dreamers
It wasn’t because you were good
It wasn’t because someone told you to
You did it to breathe
You did it for you
For the release
For the therapy
For the enjoyment
Why stop now?